That Bad Feeling of...Well Frustration

So tonight i was hoping to go see Anneliese's play. But i got to her house too late. So i tried to ask both her and Lizz if they had any idea as to where it was. I ended up getting really mad at the gps and at the fact that i had no idea where i was going. So i ended up sending a text to lizz saying how i had lost patience and that i had no gas and that no one could give me a straight answer to my question.

Now this is where i start to feel really bad. I fell like i was blaming Lizz for what was going on. When it was really my fault for not being there on time. I was happy at the fact that they at least tried to help out. But i guess God had different intentions. Oh well. We live and we learn. Next time im going to be on time and to try to keep my head on if i get lost.

****Im sorry if it sounded like i snapped to you lizz. I will make it up to you. I will bring you to kimballs on anyday off i have this week befor you leave. I Promise.

******* Thanks The Wizard for attemptiong to help me. :P at least it wasnt a total bust. i found out where most of the roads in the center of brookline lead. And if you want to go to kimballs to ill take you.



**************I am going to pay for kimballs!. so Lizz, leave your wallet at home and dont do what you did at wendys. I didnt even have my wallet out. :P

A Past Favorite

The other day i got bored so i went through the movies we had in the house and found some old Veggie Tales dvds and vhs tapes. What fun i had with Veggie Tales! I use to watch the shows and movies all day long as a kid. They had so many fun and positive things in it unlike the tv shows today. (ex mad, adventure time, ect) My favorite movie was Johnas and the whale. At least thats what i believe its called. mainly because of the pirate who dont do anything. My favorite character is obviously Larry the cucumber. At night i would put a cd of veggie tale songs in my radio and listen to it till midnight. my favorite song is the dance of the cucumber.

Its a shame that there are more shows with negative contents in them then there are good. I wish that they still played Veggie Tales on what ever channel it was on. In fact i think it had its own channel. Its been a while so i dont know. :P

Anyway my favorite Veggie Tales song:

Drugs and Alcohol

Nowadays a lot of people are doing drugs and alcohol. Today more and more teens are doing it.

Causes for them to get involved in drugs and alcohol are:
Peer pressure
Being depressed
Because their favorite actors are doing it
Doing it to be cool
And a few more im drawing a blank on.


Its sad to know that there are lots of teens that take drugs because they are bullied and think it helps them. Its is mostly teen girls that take pills when they are depressed.

Peer pressure is another unwanted way of doing things. Some teens go to parties that end up having drinks and are soon called chicken or a wimp because they know its wrong to do drugs or drink. But of course, peer pressure ends up getting to most people and of coures they end up doing drugs and Alcohol from this.

Trying to be cool is another factor. Some kids think that to be cool you have to smoke in school, drink beer in the parkinglot ect.

You dont have to do drugs and alcohol to be cool. Stand up to the people that do and tell them that your not interested in dying from lung cancer or because you got too drunk to make the right descision. I tell people this all the time.

I dont do drugs, I dont drink and will not, escpecially as a teenager.

So ask yourself. What would you do when someone tells you to smoke or drink something? Will you let peer pressure make your chioce? Or will you walk away making the right choice?

Single Child

For basically the past week i have been living as an only child. And i have to admit im enjoying it. Sure i have to do everyones chores, but i dont have to deal with little brothers arguing all the time.

I also get to spend more time alone with my parents. Just the other day my mom got a nook. we both spent an hour sitting on the couch trying to figure out how everything worked.

Bottom line, i could get use to this.

**** Home alone Is also fun too. But thats another story.

Perfect?

I have always wondered, What is perfect?

It dosent seem to be the same for everyone. Perfect seem to be a spot that is almost right but at the same time looks better in the place it is in now than it is somewhere else.

Then there is the people that think they are perfect. Well no one is perfect. I know im not. Then againg who is? Are they the actors in those cover girl commercials? The guys that are in the shaving commercials?

Well if everyone was perfect then life would be boring. No one to try out new things, try new stunts, we would probably still be stuck in the middle ages without imperfect people.

I find i like imperfect better than perfect. I like it better when someone makes a mistake and learns from it. When lessons are learned the hard way most of the time. ( I know ive learned loads of things the hard way).

In all, it makes us who we are. It gives us the ability to be individuals. To be one of a kind.

To me this is perfect. Everyone being who they are is perfect.


Wouldn't you agree?

Fast Food. How Much Will You Eat?

Many people love to eat fast food. They think its ok to eat out almost every week. Well its not. Fast food has lots of, well bad stuff in it.

If you eat fast food every week, well you might have a problem.

Eating too much fast food can bring about many bad things. It raises cholesteral levels, adds fat to your body(obviously) and a few other things i cant think of right now.

There is a movie about fast food. It is called Super Size Me. Its about a man who eats Mcdonalds every meal everyday for 30 days. Pretty disgusting souding right? Well it is.

After watching the movie a few times in school, it has made me like Mcdonalds and fast food places less and less.

The River of Life

Life is like a river. Its a windy unpredictable journey with many different paths you can take. It all comes down to what paths you take.

Life is always full of surprises. Whether they are good or bad, it shapes us to be who we are.

Just like rivers, life has currents. Some lead you to good things in life and others to bad things. Just because a current in life is strong dosent mean you cant get out of it. And sometimes we all just want to go with the current and see what happens. Or in other words, we just go with the flow. Thats how i am most of the time.

The river of life also teaches us lessons for us to learn over the years. It shows us right from wrong, good form bad. It shows us how to be mature when others are not (bullies for example). The river brings others into our life. They help us choose paths and get out of the bad currents.

When our lives come to an end, its just the river ending. Into the ocean. That is where we go. Heaven is the ocean to where all our rivers meet.

Colors

Colors play a big part in our lives. They help us see the differences of one thing to another. They also play a role in our memories, emotions and experiences in life.

Many people have 1 or more favorite colors. Personally i love blue. I always have.

I find colors that have a certian glow, bring me back to my childhood. Like when i wear sun glasses with orange lenses.

Other colors change for me during the year. For example, Red during the summer is associated with pain and blood(injuries cuts ect), but during the holidays like Christmas and valentines day, they bring happyness and joy for Christmas and during valentines day, obviously love and caring.

Then you have colors for the seasons, Winter is white, Fall is brown, Summer is orange/red and Spring is green. And winter is my favorite season. I always am mistified by snow in different places.


For a little while i went into a phase where i liked black. I dont know why but i ended up wanting dark clothes and other things. But im a blue boy now and happy about it. It is the color of water which is an important part of life.

Blue is everywhere. It is inside and out of you. The sky is blue,the sea, trees, flowers, fish ect. In my eyes blue is life.

Six Years Lost

It has been almost 10 years since ive been adopted. 10 years of a different and better life. Now, what about the other six? Well ill tell you.....

My memories go back till i was about 3.

When i was younger, i was an adventure seeking, enerjetic little boy.

I loved to play soldier and pretending to be the blue ranger from the power rangers. I even had the blue ranger suit and gun. I wore it almost everywhere, even to school. My foster brother and i had a battle one day in the cafeiteria, resulting in tater tots all over the place.

My favorite shows were: the rugrats, thomas and friends, power rangers and spongebob.

I also was living in a foster home till i was 4. It was a rough time there. I was locked in wood stoves, my brother used me as a punching bag, everytime i was blamed for something, the belt came out, weather i did it or not.


But on the positive side, i was the coolest kid in my class. My foster brother and i would keep fighting over a girl and saying who she liked best.(i still think she liked me more then him :P )

My foster mother loved me and treated me better than the other 2 kids. I went everywhere with her. We would go shopping at the grocery store and she would always get me a sugar cookie from the bakery section. We always shared a birthday party. i remember opening a present one year thinking it was mine, and it was a frying pan for her. I was so confused. Every time i had a nightmare she was always there ready to read me a book or sing me to sleep.

Then came the day when she died. i thought it was a joke when everyone told me. i didnt sleep for a few days and was always waithing at the door for her to come home from the store or something. You can only imagine how i felt. A 4 year old boy losing his mother(in my case my foster mother). After that i was on the move from house to house.

In total i had lived in 7 houses before landing in an orphanage. The first one i lived in, i couldnt seem to get out of trouble. No matter what i did it was looked at as something wrong. Boy was i happy to get out of that house. It was also the last house that i got to watch my thomas movies. They were keeped in their movie case "just because". The next houses were better but i vagaly remember them. The one i remember most was in a urban area. At this house the foster mother bought us new toys and a bike. I also went to the same school that my birthparents had sent me to. It was probably the funner of the other houses.

Then it was on to the orpanage. Here i learned about God an christianity. To this day i still pray at night like they taught me. My brother on the other hand thinks its a big joke. I always got to the church section first, mainly because it was my favorite part of the week. I was always jelouse of the older kids because they had money to get icecream from the icecream truck when ever it came. I always had kids my age to play with. We always ran 2 miles after school and ran 5k races everymonth. When summer came we had lots of activites to do. We did things from going to fairs and amusement parks to having irish peopl come visit us and sing and dance. We always celebrated birthdays with a massive cake and pizza.

I left the orphanage when i was 6. I never celebrated my 5th birthday. I was convinced i was still five when i went to first grade.

I love to visit my orphanage everychance i get. Next time im going to go when Lizz gets back. And if you want to Lisa you can come too. I think you would love sister maxamilian.


This is a little recap of the six years i havent had much thought for until now.


****I was inspired to write this by Annelise. After i read her blog about Winnie the Pooh. i decided to go back to the six "lost" years of my life. So thanks Annelise for telling me to look back at my child hood. :P