Well not much going on here. School work and sleep is all i do now. I wish i could do more.
Plus i have turned 20. I'm still not use to that idea. I cant get old yet.
This year has been interesting so far. in January my girlfriend of two years was asked to go on a double date by one of her girlfriends. i was fine with it until i found out i was not going to be the guy she was going with. i asked her not to go but she convinced me that is was just to support her friend. turns out her friend was hoping that the other guy and my girlfriend would connect and be more than friends. I no longer like that girl. after that date my girlfriend is more involved in her phone that ever. smiling and laughing at the other guys messages and snap chats. i seemed to be fading from her mind as she talked about him more and seemed to interact with me less. she would message him late into the night and wanted to hangout with him on the only days we had time for just her and I. she started to ask if it was ok if she could stay at his house late into the night and come home after midnight. of course i said no to this. i then got a little bit suspicious after i saw her send hearts and kisses to him over text. i went through her phone that night and saw that she liked him and wanted to end it with me. she was calling him her crush, as i was just an idiot on whisper. the messages between him and her bashed me around a few times as well as seeing her call him cute and sending him hearts alot.
ive never felt so broken.
we are still together, but i cant help but carry the thought around that i was not good enough for her at one point.
