spoiled?

today my brothers my mom and i went to get new bikes for nantuckett.but before we did this, my mom brought two of my other bikes to a bike shop to get fixed up. (i had 4 bikes in total). my brothers both got use bikes while i got a new one. then it got me thinking.

am i spoiled?

for this question it depends on who you are. if you are like many of the kids in school, im not. i find it kinda stupid for kids to get whatever they want all the time. nowadays everyone talks about how their parents got them a new ipod or phone or computer or something just because they didnt like it or they broke it.

im not like everyone else. i work to get what i own. i mean yea, sometimes my parents get me things. like for my new bike they paid half of it for me. (only because i gave up my other bikes without knowing i was getting another one). but i work had for what i have and take care of everything.my parents wont buy me a new ipod just because i got mad and threw it at the wall. insted i use my own money to get what i want. and it may not get the best items (like my car) but i still take good care of them.

and another thing. when i use someone else's stuff, i take care of them and fix them when something bad happens. (unless its like an ipod, phone ect) i find it rude for people to abuse things that are not theirs and return the item in really bad shape.

it just goes to show that this generation seems to be spoiled alot. im not saying everyone is. just that a majority of todays kids are.

**** if you ever get dropped off at a place by my mom and she says she's gunna be back in 20 min tops, walk around the place for about 40 min. haha she dosent always return in the amount of time she says.

i have a strange feeling that tigger is about to jump into my room. oh well

what hurts most

today i thought alot of what hurts me. then i came to the one thing that hurt me the most. my mother. i looked back today at my past at what has hurt me in my life and her not caring about me and leaving me without a family for a while. this is the one thing that strikes me down hard. i remeber some one in 8th grade that thought it was funny that she did this. i was ready to break his arms off. since then i just try to shrug it off.

but looking back at this i know more about who i am going to be. i am not going to abandon my kids for any reason, i wont give up on people that need help because i choose to lead a bad life.

if anything, i am going to be the opposite of my parents. im not going to make the same mistakes as they did. today may be my last day looking in the shadows. hopefully it is. and no matter how much my brothers ask about them, i wont think about them.

its time i leave the wrong and become strong.

*Anneliesa- have fun in china and be safe, dont be scared of the terricotta soldiers there not real (just joking). :P

Where did i come from....Who i want to be

well today i was talking to my little brothers on skype. it made me think of what most people have that i dont, their birthfamily.

then this got me thinking.
what is my heritage?
where is my homeland?

many people say that they thing i am asian. frankly i would love to be asian. its my favorite type of culture.

i have wanted to get some chinese broad swords and hooked swords and practice with them in the woods,so that i could be prepered for whatever life throws at me.

i have also wanted to grow up to be an old man. a very wise old man. like Iroh and Roku in avatar.

and also to be there to help out others in need, not matter whats going on.

A place of my own

Today i found myself in a daydream of a world where i can escape from reality. it is based in the world of Avatar, where people live happily bending whatever element they can.

As for me im the Avatar-Aang style. (with a few Zuko items mixed in)

I wish i could live the life that the characters of Avatar did. To be free to do what you want, go where ever you want. And adventures all the time!
Thats how i wish i could live.
Free
in control of the 4 elements (im mean com'on who wouldnt wanna shoot fire out of thier hands, throw boulders around, fly when ever you want to and be able to make a tidle wave when you do a cannon ball)

and then you can also travel the world on a flying bison, aided by a flying lemur(i wish they existed)

well alot of things happen in my world.

the only question is, do you have a place to escape reality?a place you can go when you are feeling down? a place to go where only you can visit? where you know you are in control, safe and where you matter the most?

if you answered no to any of these, create a world of your own that you can escape to. a place of your own.


** as for Anneliesa its probably in the 100 acre woods :P (nothing wrong with that)where she lives in a nice big tree next to all her friends. :)

haha im just playing around Anneliese, i wont judge you if that is your place of your own. say hi to rabbit for me! lol :D

songs

songs are a big influence in my life. they bring about many things in my life.
depending on what song it is depends on how it is involved in my life.
many songs i listen to hold memories of when i listened to those songs. every month i seem to find a new song i can associate with a part of my life.
just ask and i will be able to think of a song that makes me think of you.

one song that keeps me up all the time even when im down is Live Your Life. it makes me think about who i really am and why i am here. it is the reason i published those other 2 posts about who i really am.

i also associate other songs by important events in my life, the one i care about the most in my life, and and sometimes even being a ninja (funny right?)

some songs even associate whith what i would do in my life (for example Grenade by Bruno Mars)

ive even tried to come up with my own songs but i have no musical talent so i never finish them. (i know what your saying. Duncan trying to write a song?!! thats impossible) haha i agree that it seems impossible. i can only seem to get a few verses then i get stuck and eventually give up after an hour.

**** link to Live Your Life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=koVHN6eO4Xg

who am i really? part two

here is another part of who i am.

i am a strong willed person. depending on who you are depends on what i do. for example if your a bullie ill stand up to you, if you a friend ill defend you. im one to keep the ones i care about and my friends safe weather or not im safe. thats what im here for. to defend and help those in need and stand up to the one hurting others.

im not one to get physically violent. i have never been a fighter. i fight with words not fists. i hate to see people to get picked on because they cant do something or have a disability.

i am also one that loves to travel to new places. one place i would love to go to is China. since ive been a little kid i have alwasy wanted to go there and live in the time of ancient China. my favorite weapon is made from the chinese which are Broad Swords.

i love to go to the beach. especialy at night. i find it to be amazing when you see whales surfacing in the distance in the moonlight. and also fireworks off in the distance and reflecting off the water.

i also love little kids. i love how they always seem sweet and innocent with everything they do. everywhere i go i always seem to make the younger ones smile or laugh on field trips or walking through stores or what not. so all in all i dont like to admit it but get soft around little kids.

im running out of things to say here. :P


***Anneliesa, thanks for yor comments on my blogs. it made me happier dispite what has been going on recently. Thank You :)

who am i really?

some times i wonder, who am i? what is my purpose in life? sometimes i even wonder if anyone knows me at all. well here is who i am.


i am a 16 year old who has had a lot of pain in his life. from my life without a family to someone i like liking someone else. i was an orphane when i was younger. i didnt know if i would have a family during that time. i was more afraid of being alone than anything else at that time. but now im in a family, and im very happy to be here. mainly because of friends and meeting someone who i care about alot.

im not one of those kids who does drugs, drinks or anything sexual. frankly i frown apon these for teens to be doing. and the tv shows that promote these things. i dont cheat on anyone. never have never will, id rather die than hurt my girl.

i also seem to be pretty good at giving advice to anyone that needs it. except me of course.

im one of those people that keeps my word. ill never hurt anyone, let anyone down or let anyone get hurt as long as im around. if you need help im here for you. always.


there are many other things id like to put up here but im afraid this is getting too long. there will probably be a follow up of this soon.


this is who i am

Fear of Death

Death is just an illusion. many people fear death. i am not one of these people. to me death is just Gods way of telling you that you did your job and that its time to go home. my job is to be helpful, kind and loving, and thats exactly what i do. frankly i dont know why anyone, except kids, fear death. i know why kids fear death. to them its loss of protection, loved ones and even who they are. frankly i could die today or tomorrow, weather its getting hit by a car or taking a bullet for someone i care about. either way i will accept my time when it comes. and i will be happy when i go.

this isnt the longest blog ive done
but its all i could think of
about the subject of death

***to Anneliesa: thank you for your kind words over the past week. they helped.

summer

right now i sit in my room thinking about summer. Usually its all about work, how much money i make, what i do with that money ect. but this summer i feel like its gunna be different. i have lots of things to do with friends this year. like going to the movies sleep overs ect. its a little different now that i have a car. no more asking mom if she can drop me off here or pick me up there. im my own driver now. so far ive only done a couple worthwhile thing during my summer. for example; racing down a massive windy hill on bikes near my aunts house, going to see Lisa's play (which she was amazing at), and playing a 6+ hour game of monopoly with my cuzins( and other things i cant think of right now).


this year my family is going to nantuckett to visit jake. its gunna be the first time in a few years that ive been in an island. i am also hoping to go visit lizz while im there like we planned. and i hope i get the backseat all to myself the whole trip.

im also hoping to find time to rebuild a fort i made that got ruined over the winter, and by my cuzins.

speacking of which my cuzin and i are hoping to get another job at a tractor barn place (still havent gotten the name down) or at market basket.

but all in all im gunna try to make this a summer ill never forget
this is also one summer in not going to forget.

We will miss you

well today i went to see my grandfather in the hospital after his stroke. it shocked me to see how much he change in the past 2 days. he went from a sturdy looking man to a fragil one. i hate the fact that he is going to die. right now the doctors have no idea how much longer he has left. he could have 2 min or 2 weeks. all we know is that he is fighting against death right now. if you say something funny you can see him smile in his sleep. he still likes his soda and hastes his water. he looks as if he is sleepin. but he can still hear whats going on even though he can only respond with a smile now and then. right now its just the older kids and the adults visiting him. who knows how the younger kids will react to this. we are going to lose alot when he is gone. the questions that now go through my head are-
who will teach the younger kids about making maple syrup?
who will tell us stories of how you got away with certain things in the good old days?
when are we ever going to hear that fimiliar laugh that we all know?
who is going to tell us to keep off his shed roof?

these and many other Questions are floating around my head.
all i know is that he will be misse very much. he was a happy, pepsi drinking man that loved to tell people what he thought was right or wrong and what you can do. (most of the times it didnt have anything to do with what was actually going on). so believe i speak for all of us when i say that pepe will be missed alot.

good bye for now.
Duncan George Fafard

**** and im pretty sure i made him happy when i gave him a hug. it literially took his breath away. (only for a second). i also put my middle name up today in honer of my grandfather.

My Life

my life as a child was a little, un normal. i was born in florida then moved up here in new hampshire. i lived in a foster home for about 4 years be for my foster mother died. but before that happened my fosterbrother and i would cause loads of mischief. we would be anywhere and everywhere. you could find us on the roof, in pipes under the road, even in the middle of a pricker bush! at school we were the coolest kids mainly because we broke all the rules and got away with it. (dont bring in toy guns to school, its fun till you get caught) we would even fight over a girl in our class. (i still think she liked me best) then came the news that my foster mother had died. i wasnt happy. the next year or so(i dont know how long it was) i was moving from house to house till i landed in an orphanage. i have to say it was fun at the orphanage and i love visiting the nuns. i spent about 6 months there where we did summer school, 5k races and lots of other fun things. then i moved here in the house i am in now. i have to say i love it here. mainly because of friends and family. and mainly because of 2 special people.

but i wasnt always the helpful fun personn i am now.
frankly i have to be honest. i use to be a really bad kid. i would swear, back talk to adults, steal, and all just to fit in and be cool at school.
but i have learned that you dont have to do all those things to be cool. ask any of my friends and they will tell you that im a responsible fun person to hang out with. one of my friends even spent a day trying to get me to swear. haha thta was a funny day. he failed at doing that.

ive learned that you have to be youself to be "cool" at school. you dont have to do drugs, smoking, drinking or any other bad things to fit in. and dont let people bully you around. you are better than them because you dont pick on others or beat them up because they are different. you can healp out others by standing up to bullies and helping out the one who are picked on alot. ive done this once or twice before. and it feels good to help out the ones who are picked on alot.

so stay smart and help out anyone you know is getting pushed around. and just be yourself. people usually like you for who you are.





** and i burnt some pancakes this morning :D i gotta learn to cook better :).

word i know in chinese

since i have watched mulan when i was a kid i have been inteested in the chinese ways of life. i have studied some of the word and writings of chinese. some of the words i have learned to read and write in chinese are:
water
earth
fire
air
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10
sun
moon
tree
love
mountain
volcano



thats what i have so far as a 2nd language. and im studying some other words. if you wanna give some words for me to study then post them up. but blogger wont let me paste anything so i cant show the symboyls.

my revised post of ME

ok this is a revised post of my blog that i did yesterday. Hello my name is Duncan. i am a fun loving, nice, responsible and healpful person. i love to snowmobile, hang out with friends and i love to drive around in my car aimlessly. my favorite
movie-too many good ones out there,
food- anything that dosent have olives or mushrooms
Tv show- avatar the last airbeder
weapon-broad swords
car- chevy camaro
and i cant think of anything else right now.


I am also adopted and proud of it. if anyone makes fun of orphans there gunna get a talking to. i dont know if these count as sports but i love biking anywhere i can go, playing pickle ball and ill play any sport for fun, not for a team. i love building things. ive worked on 4 fourts in the back yard, 3 faild and one is still up after 8 years. so thats a little peice about me and im pretty sure there are some typos in here.

me

hello my name is Duncan Fafard. I am making a new blog because my other one was for school. anyway some things about me are:
i love snowmobiling
i am an aved biker
i am creative and love to build things
ice creame is my favorite sweet food
i love action movies
my car is two different colors
DONT ASK ME TO DO ANY PRODJECT THAT IS DUE IN A FEW DAYS OR WEEKS BECAUSE I WILL PROCRASTINATE!
my favorite color is blue but i dont mind dark colors
i have no idea if im doing this right
there is a soda can within two inches of me right now
and lots of other things i can think of right now. oh yea i also love broad swords and asian cultur. well i have to go now blog ya later