today i thought alot of what hurts me. then i came to the one thing that hurt me the most. my mother. i looked back today at my past at what has hurt me in my life and her not caring about me and leaving me without a family for a while. this is the one thing that strikes me down hard. i remeber some one in 8th grade that thought it was funny that she did this. i was ready to break his arms off. since then i just try to shrug it off.
but looking back at this i know more about who i am going to be. i am not going to abandon my kids for any reason, i wont give up on people that need help because i choose to lead a bad life.
if anything, i am going to be the opposite of my parents. im not going to make the same mistakes as they did. today may be my last day looking in the shadows. hopefully it is. and no matter how much my brothers ask about them, i wont think about them.
its time i leave the wrong and become strong.
*Anneliesa- have fun in china and be safe, dont be scared of the terricotta soldiers there not real (just joking). :P
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