I don't care what you think. I don't care if i'm not tall enough, I don't care if i'm not cool enough for you.
I don't care if my parents think i'm not good enough for anything.
they say i should be buff, smart, athletic, bigger taller ect.
I DON'T CARE! JUST LET ME BE ME!
so what if i'm not what you want, either move on or accept me for who i am.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
What Happened?
Where did you go? What happened to you? Where is the you that was always excited to talk to me? The one who would play multiple words with friends with me while on Skype? Where is the girl that always made sure i played Sims social? Where is the you that left me multiple messages on my phone, I pod or chat when i would be gone for 5 minutes? Where is the girl that i use to know?
I miss talking to you and Skyping with you, the texts and the few times we hung out. Your the first girl i have truly felt comfortable with, we were real close and now we are strangers. i don't know what i did or said, or if its because of the other guy, but what ever it is i wish it could all go back to the you i could always share a laugh with.
No matter what mood i was in you could always make me smile. I don't want to lose you.
Sincerely, someone who really cares about you.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Distant
No texts, no friends, no smile, no me. Just.....distance. Being distant from everything and everyone.
I feel like a nobody. I don't get any respect from family members, i'm looked at as a joke, my parents don't have confidence in me getting a job.
Apparently i'm different from who i was a few months ago. I guess i was funny, always smiled, always had a good aura around me. Now i don't smile, i don't talk to anyone, i don't hang out with anyone, i'm depressed, no zest for life, the good in me is gone, for how long i don't know.
I've realized just how alone i am right now, how I've just been that kid that everyone uses for what they need, then gets thrown away like a piece of trash. Sure i can deal with the verbal abuses people give me, but its the physical abuse that is the hardest to take.
I keep all of my feelings to myself, i keep them out of sight, out of mind. Everyday they bottle up, and their ready to burst apart like a volcano. I don't know what to do with them, and i don't have anyone to trust them with.
When someone else has a problem, i can help them easily. I just don't know how to fix my problems.
I feel like a nobody. I don't get any respect from family members, i'm looked at as a joke, my parents don't have confidence in me getting a job.
Apparently i'm different from who i was a few months ago. I guess i was funny, always smiled, always had a good aura around me. Now i don't smile, i don't talk to anyone, i don't hang out with anyone, i'm depressed, no zest for life, the good in me is gone, for how long i don't know.
I've realized just how alone i am right now, how I've just been that kid that everyone uses for what they need, then gets thrown away like a piece of trash. Sure i can deal with the verbal abuses people give me, but its the physical abuse that is the hardest to take.
I keep all of my feelings to myself, i keep them out of sight, out of mind. Everyday they bottle up, and their ready to burst apart like a volcano. I don't know what to do with them, and i don't have anyone to trust them with.
When someone else has a problem, i can help them easily. I just don't know how to fix my problems.
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