Distant

No texts, no friends, no smile, no me. Just.....distance. Being distant from everything and everyone.
I feel like a nobody. I don't get any respect from family members, i'm looked at as a joke, my parents don't have confidence in me getting a job.

Apparently i'm different from who i was a few months ago. I guess i was funny, always smiled, always had a good aura around me.  Now i don't smile, i don't talk to anyone, i don't hang out with anyone, i'm depressed, no zest for life, the good in me is gone, for how long i don't know.

I've realized just how alone i am right now, how I've just been that kid that everyone uses for what they need, then gets thrown away like a piece of trash. Sure i can deal with the verbal abuses people give me, but its the physical abuse that is the hardest to take.

I keep all of my feelings to myself, i keep them out of sight, out of mind. Everyday they bottle up, and their ready to burst apart like a volcano. I don't know what to do with them, and i don't have anyone to trust them with.

When someone else has a problem, i can help them easily. I just don't know how to fix my problems.