Back Again...I Guess

Well I haven't been on here in quite a while. Two years I believe. I guess I am here to vent then.

Well here is my life right now

So I am in college soon to end my first semester and hopefully get to start my second semester. However I have very little money and these past few weeks, well haven't been very good. It seems that every time I have something going good it gets ruined. For example; I just started to have all my bills slow down (by slow down i mean less a month)  and today my mom messaged me saying a debt collector was trying to get a hold of me. Turns out when i was in Ohio I had gotten WiFi for my dorm. When I left I had asked them to turn off my account. I guess it never did and this past year they have charged me for wifi for the entire year resulting in a $300 payment. Joy. just another lesson learned I guess.

Second I have been trying to find a second job due to the fact i now only work part time. I now only make about $600 a month. Not enough to pay for my school bills and my car all together. It seems that every place I apply too is promising for the first three weeks saying they will find a way to get me hours to fit my schedule. so far they have all disappointed me, either by simply not getting back to me ( after 6 weeks of going there in person) or saying my schedule is too busy for me to add anything else to it.  So when did other people decide how much it too much work for me? Its my choice is it not? So far I have applied to countless places, gotten many interviews and so far I have still not gotten a  second job. Its Christmas time and I don't have any money to get my family presents.

Third. I feel invisible to the world, unwanted. I have yet to make any good friends that will hang out with me after school instead of just the classroom. Even my own family members don't reply to my messages while they are online. it usually takes them a day or two to respond.  My current girlfriend dose not seem to care much about us even though she says she does, (Due to an argument with my parents I moved out and am now living with her). we share a room together and when we first moved in she said she wanted it to be our room. well needless to say its mostly her room with my dresser being the only indication I'm there. She didn't want me to put the thing I wanted in the room due to the fact that they were childish. So I packed everything up except for clothes and important paperwork and put everything else in storage. She dosen't seem to respect my "thoughts", or "wishes".  Ill ask her to do something  important for me that I cant do due to being in class all the time (phone call at a certain time, important items to drop off ect) and she will choose not to do them until either I did it or it was convince for her. Or i ask her to wait for me to do something but she does it anyway. I gust got a PlayStation 4 for myself ( I got Walmart credit to make monthly payments on it because A. I didn't think I had credit at the time and wanted credit, and B. I didn't have all $400 for it.) So i asked her to wait for me to open it because I wanted to be the first to use it ( I did buy it with my own money after all and still am paying for it). I also wanted to set up myself an account first so I could do all of the set up. Instead i came home from school to see that she had already opened it up, made an account for the both of us with the profile name as "sbsmiling" and everything already set up taking all the fun of it out for me. Now I got the PlayStation for mainly me and I want her to play games with me too, But she decided to give it to the entire family. And knowing her dad and how much he has to be the one to own everything, I pretty much got screwed out of the ps4 that i just got 2 days ago. Again. no respect for me and my wishes. that is my main point here.

Well I'm pretty sure that anyone (if anyone) reading this probably stopped after the first few sentences and probably has not bothered reading to the end. So im done for the night.

Until next time

P.S. I am  walking contradiction, i was wearing 4 layers indoors, complaining I was cold and eating ice-cream at the same time. Currently that is my logic.